Welcome to my blog!  My name is Zelmia and this is a story about having the courage to change your dreams and the journey of rediscovering yourself!

I had such big dreams of a big house, filled with a large, happy family, with lots of kids running around and causing havoc (driving me up the walls)… but then we started struggling with fertility.

After 3 miscarriages, we started with our very first IVF.  After an abscess, septicaemia, losing my right ovary, almost dying (full story here) and another 3 rounds of IVF, I finally delivered a healthy, beautiful baby girl.  After this, we’ve had 8 failed rounds of IVF.  Due to a whole messy, mass of reasons (finances, depression, insomnia, weight gain, always being sick, being absolutely fed-up), I had to revise my big dream of having a large family.  I now have to go in search of something new…

This is quite daunting.  I found that infertility consumed me and I actually don’t know what my passions, pursuits or interests are anymore.  If a woman loses her dream, has she lost her identity?  Or is it an opportunity for a new and brighter birth (excuse the pun)?  I made the decision to start rediscovering myself and find new goals for myself and my family.

I want to help women to shift their focus from a body that failed them, to nurturing the body they have been given. 

This is an idiot’s guide to being new, to being well and being whole.  I can use all the help I can get and I would really love for you to participate and give me your comments!  I know now that we are not alone in this…